About Many Random Things

People do ask, in fact I think most of you already know; the counter in my blog remain at this figure for months. Pathetically yes I’m losing a lot of readers for the reason of few and far between my blog updates. Sincere apologies for that and I’m trying hard to put thing back on line. Things just getting in my way whenever I feel like blogging; internship, laptop not working *cough* World Cup *cough* and etcetera. I know an excuse at this time seems out of place, but hey that’s the fact. It’s not like I’m getting paid for blogging except that twenty dollars from Nuffnang. Nonetheless don’t get me wrong, I’m just saying that sometimes we need to give priority for other more important thing *cough* World Cup *cough* before blogging. And don’t get me wrong again, I’ll blog whenever I got the chance; willingly.

People do ask; if this is the case, why not closing your blog and that guy get a nice wallop from me. Let me get this straight, there are many type of blogger mainly the business type and well…the not so business type. Unfortunately I’m in the class of not so business type blogger, but I don’t mind if my blog able to generate healthy profits. Basically, I blog for fun; it’s not about the grammar and it’s definitely not about politics (clarification: I’m a patriot, jangan tangkap saya).

I blog for fun; for me to have fun and hopefully the readers as well. Nevertheless I don’t mind getting a little fame from it; getting a positive greeting or comment from stranger is one of it. “Hey mellymonkeys, going library?” from the person who I totally don’t know; that’s a plus, not? But as I told my readers and even my friends; what happen in blog, remain in blog.

I don’t like people bringing up my blog in my reality life. I can talk about almost everything in blog but when it comes to real life, I hope I can retain some of it as my privacy. To be fair, this applies to all including best friends. It is okay with me if you are having fun reading my blog but when it’s face to face; forget it.

If someone told you MLMB is all about grammar and English; it’s a joke. It was never about grammar or English in MLMB. Frankly speaking, I’m not even sure whether I got my spelling right sometimes. If you’re trying to learn or improve your English, never, I repeat never use my blog as a reference. Well, anyone would be aware of that at their first glance but just to be sure, don’t use any of my blog materials whether are the format, language, style or grammar in your essay. If you wrote that in your MUET exam, prepare to retake. To be real honest, I just write what came to my mind; freestyle-ly. In fact, I restricted both my brothers to not follow my blog writing style, but if you still want to give it a try; go ahead.

A few weeks ago, there’s this girl who comment about my blog. She said it’s too long. I have no comment for that, but I thought blog should be long. If you’re looking for a short blog aka shout out, you can always find that in Twitter and Facebook, not? I guess she has a wrong definition for blog. Few days later, another girl told me she’s fed up logging to my blog and finds no updates. She suggests I have a fixed day to update my blog like what Japanese manga did. Well, the only different between me and those manga writers is they get paid while I don’t. I mean I love to blog as a profession, but heck with my current rojak writing skills and uncommitted blog updating attitude; I’ll be unemployed in no time. And last week, when I’m out meeting my senior; she asked me to summarize out my blog to her as she has no time to read my blog recently. She was like “What going on recently in your blog? Let's summarize and break it down in 50 words. Come on 50 words”. That’s another wrong definition girl. If you want a summarize blog, go Twitter for god sake.

If it’s too long for you, Fine! I’ll do a shorter version but then I’m sure there’s this girl complaining again “So short no Ummph la”. Girls!

Time Machine

Have you ever thought back of silly mistake you did; minor silly little mistake that affect your whole life? I wouldn’t know for sure what will lies ahead of me, but no doubt I still clearly remember what I have done in the past; every little single of it. I don’t deny that I made mistake, in fact everyone did; human is not that perfect after all.

Humans tend to make wrong decision every day, whether is choosing their soup of the day, health insurance or even life partner. Some tends to repeat their mistake, some tends to fix their mistake right after that and some may just let it be. “Let it be is the coolest way to deal with problem” that’s how naïve I was back then. But let’s go back to reality, you left your biggest unsolved problem hanging there for years; yes for years, and you don’t think people will take advantage of this unsolved problem? Well, back then I didn’t give a darn about it for the reason that’s the coolest way to deal with problem, not? But reality is a reality, this unsolved problem somewhat somehow grew larger and larger; thanks to those who constantly giving their piece of their mind. Eventually this unsolved problem became a plateau and stay there.

Years later, when I brought back this unsolved problem out and guess what? It didn’t explode. The reason I’m bringing this unsolved problem out not with the hope of forgiveness, but for the reason to put an end to it. I’m prepared for the worst; explosion and I’m ready for it. But guess what again? This unsolved problem has reached its plateau years ago and basically people just treat it as things-happened. When things happened, it just happened and stays there forever; basically there’s no ending to it. Naively I still thought I can end this.

The people who once close to you become those who hate you or to be exact, treat you invisible. The people who once your enemy has a new friend; eh…basically I have a new enemy, thank you. Frankly speaking, I don’t mind to have an extra hater. I already had a few dozens of them. But the sour face is still there, not because you hate me but for the reason why you hate me.

It make me in awe sometime, a real minor problem just like choosing the soup of the day caused everything to be the other way round. Does it really worth? I myself know it’s not my fault, clearly not my fault but if I willing to tolerate or maybe treat that this never happen before, maybe everything will be better.

Honestly, I don’t look at myself as a good guy. Everyone knows good guy extinct thousand years ago together with T-Rex. I guess god doesn’t make this kind of guy anymore maybe because he is fed up seeing his good creation die in the hand of bad guy so many freaking times. Face it, we all did bad thing; the only different between me and you is I did too many bad things. I have to admit, compare to the entire bad thing I did, this is like a kindergarten level bad thing yet it make everything so different now.

Today when I look at their shout out, honestly somewhere in my heart I felt left out. If I had a chance to amend this once again, I’ll pull this problem out of everyone heart before it reaches the plateau. Maybe we’re still friend now. So people, don’t leave your problem hanging around; trust me, even a small problem if left unsolved, it could ruin the whole kingdom. (Yet there’s always an exception, you-know-who)