Time Machine

Have you ever thought back of silly mistake you did; minor silly little mistake that affect your whole life? I wouldn’t know for sure what will lies ahead of me, but no doubt I still clearly remember what I have done in the past; every little single of it. I don’t deny that I made mistake, in fact everyone did; human is not that perfect after all.

Humans tend to make wrong decision every day, whether is choosing their soup of the day, health insurance or even life partner. Some tends to repeat their mistake, some tends to fix their mistake right after that and some may just let it be. “Let it be is the coolest way to deal with problem” that’s how naïve I was back then. But let’s go back to reality, you left your biggest unsolved problem hanging there for years; yes for years, and you don’t think people will take advantage of this unsolved problem? Well, back then I didn’t give a darn about it for the reason that’s the coolest way to deal with problem, not? But reality is a reality, this unsolved problem somewhat somehow grew larger and larger; thanks to those who constantly giving their piece of their mind. Eventually this unsolved problem became a plateau and stay there.

Years later, when I brought back this unsolved problem out and guess what? It didn’t explode. The reason I’m bringing this unsolved problem out not with the hope of forgiveness, but for the reason to put an end to it. I’m prepared for the worst; explosion and I’m ready for it. But guess what again? This unsolved problem has reached its plateau years ago and basically people just treat it as things-happened. When things happened, it just happened and stays there forever; basically there’s no ending to it. Naively I still thought I can end this.

The people who once close to you become those who hate you or to be exact, treat you invisible. The people who once your enemy has a new friend; eh…basically I have a new enemy, thank you. Frankly speaking, I don’t mind to have an extra hater. I already had a few dozens of them. But the sour face is still there, not because you hate me but for the reason why you hate me.

It make me in awe sometime, a real minor problem just like choosing the soup of the day caused everything to be the other way round. Does it really worth? I myself know it’s not my fault, clearly not my fault but if I willing to tolerate or maybe treat that this never happen before, maybe everything will be better.

Honestly, I don’t look at myself as a good guy. Everyone knows good guy extinct thousand years ago together with T-Rex. I guess god doesn’t make this kind of guy anymore maybe because he is fed up seeing his good creation die in the hand of bad guy so many freaking times. Face it, we all did bad thing; the only different between me and you is I did too many bad things. I have to admit, compare to the entire bad thing I did, this is like a kindergarten level bad thing yet it make everything so different now.

Today when I look at their shout out, honestly somewhere in my heart I felt left out. If I had a chance to amend this once again, I’ll pull this problem out of everyone heart before it reaches the plateau. Maybe we’re still friend now. So people, don’t leave your problem hanging around; trust me, even a small problem if left unsolved, it could ruin the whole kingdom. (Yet there’s always an exception, you-know-who)