Friday, May 22, 2009

A Stay in UUM


*fire extinguisher : belows are just my personal thoughts and I sincerely apologize if there's any wrong in words and informations.

Due to MASUM (Majlis Sukan Universiti Malaysia/ Malaysia University Sport Council); an inter university sports event, I had the opportunity to stay a week in UUM; the first university I ever stayed other than my own university. Well back there in my own university, I had been listening to complains about my university that the facilities there are so bad if compare to cave; the cave is like some five stars hotel. It happens so frequent, that it has become a routine for my university students to complain every now and then. It’s always been the facilities problems specifically the Internet services.

To me, my university students should be glad of the services and facilities provided in my university. Yes it’s not the best thing one university can provide. It’s always moderate in every service provided and some even say near the edge of bad status at all the time; that’s because we still being unconscious of how lucky we are. Try come to other university for instance like *cough* UUM *cough*. Then you’ll be thankful of the entire thing we had.

Let’s talk about the room, two beds in one room just like my university, nothing different huh? Dont't say that early. I cannot blame this university because it’s an old university, therefore the facilities and tools here should be quite aged and spider webbed. And due to its historical value, there are constantly new students coming in and out; and some with too much creativity. That’s why there is lots of graffiti on the wall, on the table, in the closet and even on the bed. Yes freaking graffiti on the bed (which ended up looking like some murder scene on the bed, it almost freak us out as one of the bed here is stained with red paint as in blood). I cannot say that my university provides the best, but at least we do have a clean bed, a wider table, and a brighter environment. Oh! Did I tell you that UUM hostel is gloomy all the time? Yes it is.


Maybe for those who are fond of campus life, UUM is the most preferable selection; the university here is too big, till I’m afraid of walking out at night. Getting lost is just as simple as 123 in UUM as it looks like a puzzle to me. Yes, you can meet a lot of friends here because you simply got to walk around this university if you ever want to get to your class, library, mart or toilet. I’m no kidding; you have to walk a long distance just to get to the toilet. And it’s a public toilet; meaning people share the toilet with you. I'm already tired of hearing complaints like, five person sharing two bathrooms is already a big issue in my university. What if I say, in UUM, there are more than twenty peoples sharing three bathrooms?

The most common problem in my university is the Internet service. Too slow, too many banned website and software, limited Internet usage and bla bla bla. My dear university students, if you want to online here, there are only two ways; one is you being lucky to get a room near the wireless router (which are two or three room of the entire block) and two is you walking a long distance to the student hall. Yes undeniably, their Internet is fast, no banned website and software, and not even limited Internet usage. But what’s the point of that, if there are only lucky few who get to online while others sitting there watching this few lucky bastard surfing the Internet?

Peoples tend not to be grateful for what they had and unaware of how lucky they are, not till they experience the reality. If you are lucky enough to realize it sooner, you will still be able to cherish it once again; but for most of the cases, it’s always too late to do that.

Eventually you will lose him because you never cherish him.


Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Trustworthy Faith


First and foremost, I would like to apologize; sorry for keeping you guys hang around. I’m busy with my daily basketball training lately. Yes! In this super hot weather, yes! In this freaking holidays and yes! I’m doing this on my free will. Surprise huh? That was all the fuss and that’s the reason why I couldn’t update my blog lately; doesn't it sound like a good excuses to you?

Well that’s what happened, and I really don’t care whether you believe it or not. The thing is that’s exactly what happened for the past few weeks. I mean it’s totally up to you guys to trust me or not because you’re the one who is making your mind up. By chance, it’s circuitously related to the title of my blog today, Trustworthy Faith.

Faith is somewhat defined as confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing. Faith often relates with trust, believe, hope and expectation. Faith may vary from a person to another; the definition of faith is somehow too wide and vague. Nonetheless to me, faith is when you totally accept as true in the person and most significantly on no account you’ll doubt about that person.

Frankly speaking, I’m kind of a defensive person. No matter what you told me, I only believe it half and judge the other half myself. With this kind of attitude, you never go wrong. If the news is true, you already trust half of it (nothing to lose); furthermore if the news is true, I’m pretty sure there’ll be some sort of sign that shows it’s obviously true. And by that, somehow you’ll make a wise judgment and eventually a shrewd decision.

Now what happen if it’s false news? Well, if it’s false news, you should be thankful because you only trust half of it. Rather than completely being hurt or deceived by the hoax/fault which one planned/unintentional for long/short, you are actually blessed because you only throw half of your faith in it; as I said you’ll never go wrong with this kind of principle.

The theory of this principle is simple, but practicing it is like breaking a diamond with a stone. Lately I virtually overlook about this theory, I had been trusting people with all my heart. Frankly speaking, I’m furious at their mistake, but in the end I still forgive and forget because I trust them; they didn’t do it deliberately. They just being new to the ever-changing environment and failed to settle in, that’s why I still willing to put my faith on them. Recently, I myself become conscious that trusting a person can be so instantaneous and insane; call me stupid or call me naïve, but the thing is I choose to believe no matter how wrong things can go.

By believing, I actually sacrifice a lot; more than you guys can imagine and I never regret believing until I heard of “were you lying?” or “I cannot trust you”.

Frankly speaking, that was heart breaking. I mean I don’t expect you to forgo as much as I do; because you guys really had no idea what I had to give up just putting my faith on you. Maybe you guys do sacrifice as much as I do, but what’s the point of your sacrification if you can’t even put your faith in me.

Darn it! So much for my instantaneous and insane faith, trusting you is never been instantaneous but I realize trusting you are just insane.

Yet, I never stop trusting. Am I doing the right thing? No one knows.


Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Live Blogging: Last Paper


***UPDATED***

I’m doing a live blogging, yes right now.

Okay here’s the scenario, I’ll be having my last paper EBT 203 soon (5th May 2009, TIME 1430) but there a a full-size slight setback; I neither study nor touch the textbook before. Heh. Darn it! It’s just so not enough time for me to study (of course not to mention the time I wasted on computer games, can't really blame the computer games though, blame me!).

It’s just so insufficient time that I even try to create a chaos or two so that the exam can be postpone; but ended up no good as the only way to stop it is by burning either the examination hall or the exam paper, yet both way will only put me into the jail or at least kicked out from my university. My second attempt was so desperate I even tried to influence some/all of my coursemates to sabotage the exam “Aiya, let’s go dinner. Eat more important leh, study comes second. Come come!*pushing their textbook away*” but guess what; they secretly bring their notes to dinner.

I guess if I really utilize my sabotage passion and spirit in my study, getting a PhD is just a matter of time for me.

In the end, I had no other choice but to start studying now. Yes starting from base one; lecture one. And I’ll be doing a live blog on how I study last minutely because some of you guys really don’t know what we students gone through. It’s hell.

TIME 0000

A good starts as one of my friend send me some ‘tips’ for the paper. Good work.

TIME 0015

Darn it! The ‘tips’ covers almost the whole EBT 203 syllabus. ‘Good work my friend’.

TIME 0200

Stopped a while to have a burger. Hungry!

TIME 0230

I had my first dosage of coffee. The only thing that makes me staying awake.

TIME 0300

Another friends of mine send me some ‘hints’, same like the ‘tips’ though but not bad.

TIME 0400

Beh tahan liao. Need a nap, set alarm to 6 am.

TIME 0600

I guess alarm did rang at this time but I think by twist of fate I missed it too.

TIME 0700

What the F***! Didn’t I say wake up at six?!!

TIME 0800

Second dosage of coffee, my whole room is filled with Tongkat Ali Coffee aroma, yucky smell. But it’s a real awakening potion though. There's once when one of my coursemate came to ask me something, just right after he enter my room "Wah, you sell Tongkat Ali ar?"

TIME 1200

Time to get ready, prepared for the war.

TIME 1300

Lunch at Jian Yee Restaurant. Kena chop by uncle Jian. Kena chop by a larger margin today, a bad sign for starter.

TIME 1400

A coursemate of mine asked whether we need to study the Ternary System (3 dimensional Lever’s Rules). Since the lecturer never stress much on this topic, so I decided to skip reading this 3D Lever’s Rules and revise what more important. Furthermore the ‘tips’ and ‘hints’ that my coursemates gave covers almost everything but not Ternary System, so I guess it’s a good gamble to skip this chapter.

TIME 1430

OUT FOR WAR

TIME 1500

F*** Ternary System came out!! Really suai la!! *Geez* thanks alot my friends; so much for the ‘tips’ and ‘hints’. Good gamble somemore huh? Sure die la this time.


The morale of the story is...

Well I guess you guys (students) know better than i do. Heh.


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