It Look Easy But It Ain’t

Few words: Nowadays many fine dining restaurants serving food in a spoon, kononnya for the ease of eating; I’m alright with the concept as long as they can add up the quantity. I even overheard the ahma from next table, “Boy, where is our food?”



Howdy readers.

Howdy readers.

Howdy readers.

To be frank, I’m thinking wickedly hard just to come up with a good opening but what I can come up with is just howdy readers. I think somewhat or somehow my blogging skill just drop out.

Howdy readers, since I haven’t updated my blog for four months or so, this post is going to be sinfully long. If you’re reading this at your workplace, please skip and read it only at your lunch break to avoid being caught slacking from work. If you’re looking for jokes, you will eventually find some randomly dispersed in the paragraphs below but I can’t guarantee laughter. Thank you.

“Squeeze time for blog, squeeze time for blog” that is actually what I had been telling myself all the time but apparently my time is milk-less. I had been losing readers, from hundred viewers per day to almost nothing per month. But I can’t blame the readers, I mean who will stay for a crappy blog; sincerely if I were you, I won’t even login at the first place. After a month or so not updating my blog, I thought it will make a big impact on my readers. Just to verify that, I login my email, I check my sms, my fb and even twitter with hope to see at least 5Gb of mails but no one seems to care. FML!

That is when the condition gets critical. Forcefully, I try whatever I could to blog. But the thing is when you force yourself too hard, you tend to give yourself excuses. “Later la” that is the words that destroy many bloggers and eventually I have delay my update for four months. When I first started MLMB, one of the reasons I did it is because I have shitload time on my hand needed to be kill. That is when my update rate is godlike. But when you’re in final year of your university life, like it or not, the only free time is used to eat, shit and sleep (aside from PSP though). It may look easy to write a blog, a lot of people don’t realize, even blogging need brainstorming and apart from that you need to be extremely careful with politics (I’m a patriot, don’t sue me) and grammars. Doing stuffs like that consume a lot of time and moreover it’s not like I’m getting paid for it and hence you drag your feet more. Next thing you know, four months passed and you hadn’t type a single words, this is what happen when you procrastinate.

Today, I finally free from my final year project and my last paper. Believe it or not, the only image across my head is British army marching out and Tunku Abdul Rahman shouting Merdeka when the exam is over. So hereby I’m daring to say that I’m officially an active blogger now, hurray, and hopefully someone will notice it this time.

Aside from happiness and the ultimate feeling of liberty, on my second thought, I have to bid farewell to the place where I once called paddle-field-all-around. Four years and just like that, it ends.

Many didn’t realize but this is the place I polish my mandarin. Back then, it took me hours crafting up a phase in mandarin just to order a food. But now I can even joke in mandarin. To be sent away from my family to a remote country like Perlis indeed had upset me; I have every reason to channel my hatred to UniMAP. Since my first step to UniMAP, I was displeased with everything there. To be frank, I just want to finish that four freaking years fast and get the hell out of Perlis. That is when you start to rebel, you violate the law, you lose interest in looking for friends and basically you defy everything. The gravity for it, you hated it even more.

The first year of my university life is nothing but grudge. But soon enough, I start accepting it and gradually everything is getting better each semester. That is when I gained a few friends and slowly but surely I started to enjoy my university life. The way of life of people from Penang, Kelantan, Johor, Kedah, Negeri Sembilan and so on; are indeed very different from my life. Some may look weird, some may look frightening but when you really start blending in, you too can find joy in the midst of weirdness.

The second year of my university life is brilliant. That is when I’m ready to uptake challenges; I try to change my whole perceptive of my university. That is also the year when I decided to start MLMB to share a thought or two to the others. Nonetheless, no one is paying attention. Screw it. Two years ago when I first started MLMB, the first post is about ‘Life’s a cup of coffee’ which also signifying my grudge toward life as well as acceptance. That’s the real beginning of fun and for the first time life isn’t all emo anymore. In second year too I have been assigned with juniors where I have to kononnya guide them but indirectly I have gained a few more friends. Come to think of it, I had never bossy them or use my seniority over them because they’re more like friends to me than juniors.

The third year of my university life is simply perfect. I meet a damn kepohchi friend. She may look like old aunty who wants to know about everything but her kindness is unmatched in the whole world. She has actually been my pillow talk partner for some time; undeniably she is a very good listener. Even till now, I sometimes still feel like calling her. In this year also, I undergo a six months internship in Texchem Polymers which is a real breakthrough in my study life where I develop new love in both polymers and research industry. In the process of developing new love, I meet a quite demanding supervisor and as demanding as she was, she did taught me a lot, and not to mention a handful of colleagues aka more friends.

The forth year is a year of chasing. Sad to say, but I got a ‘B’ in Dr.M paper; everything changed since then. In that year too, I have been struggling to rise up my pointer but somewhat I’m still in the state of chasing. In this year too, I meet numerous of wonderful people mainly the staff and lecturers of UniMAP. In the process of knowing them, believe it or not, I gained a few older friends. Come to think of it, I’ve never consult the lecturers in my university earlier years. I should have.

If I were to do that all over again, I would still go for paddle-field-all-around. If I don’t, I won’t know what I’ll be missing. Adios, paddle-field-all-around.