Fall In Love Again

It’s had been a very long time since I last fallen in love, frankly speaking I do miss the feeling of falling in love. I do miss this mighty yet strange feeling that turns salt to sugar, water to honey and sour to sweet; at least it make my day by just thinking about her. By seeing her, it brightens my skies; by touching her, it brightens my skies twice, and by grasping… (Kids go to your room!! But I think that’s enough for today). Anyhow if that happen, it brighten my skies MAX.

Anyhow, to be frank, I had been seeing someone new. Yes! I know it’s wrong, but I do miss that feeling; and the only way to feel it again is by seeing someone new. Yet before that, I would like to apologize sincerely to all my girlfriends, my family, my friends, my coursemate and basically to whomever that know me. I’m sorry for not telling you guys the truth. But you can’t completely blame me, because you all are the one who abandon me, because you all are the one who say dating me is a waste of time and because you all are the one who say you’re not interested in my stuff anymore. That’s why I seek others.

The fact is she’s pretty.

The fact is she’s sporty.

The fact is she’s able to make me happy.

The fact is she makes me think of her every day.

The fact is she does make me sweat like a wet pig every time I see her.

The fact is she all I want after a busy day of studying, studying and more studying.

The fact is sometimes she make me nervous, something panic but any other time feeling satisfy.

And most importantly, she does bring back the feeling of love. Seriously, I do feel I’m a better person now by the way she inspired me; A LOT. I don’t mind she scolded me for every silly mistake I did, because I know she wanted me to a better person. Like those kiasu movies “It’s for your own good”. I totally agree with her. But once again I feel like I’m betraying my friends and family because I secretly dated her. With respect to all my guiltiness, I blogged my feeling and my confession here; please do think as you are in my shoe, and hopefully you all can forgive me. So far, I only told a few peoples and that’s all.

Isn’t that normal to date other when all your girlfriends, friends and family abandon you? Yes! You’re the one who dump me to the lonesomeness ground. Yes you! The one who is reading my blog right now! I’m tired of being alone, I’m tired of waiting for your messages and I’m so tired of our relationship. I couldn’t help for not seeking for new faces. I’m sorry, I just couldn’t help.

It’s all started 2 weeks ago, when I accept my friend invitation to their training ground. From there onwards, I had been seeing her more and more frequent. I couldn’t deny that I miss her, I really miss all the time we had together. Although we can’t really communicate well, cause she speak in her own dialect and I’m just armed with Cantonese, English, Malay and a 10Kb of Mandarin vocabularies; which is no good for her. Nevertheless we do respond each other pretty well. I mean I can shoot whatever topic that I’m curious with to her, and she bounds back pretty good. I start to understand what the meaning of mutual understanding is when you’re in love. And I think I’m very much in love with her; in fact I can say I’m all crazy about her.

I did a few silly thing just for her. There’s once she comments about my shoe for being not-up-to-her-standard; I immediately went Kangar to buy a new pair (although I said it's for me, but the fact is it's all about HER). I am willing to meet her till late night even though I had exam on the next day. I am willing to abandon my friends, just to be with her.

And I seriously think that I’m in love, and I couldn’t help nor stop it. I’m sorry, deeply sorry.

I just love the way she sound.

I just love the way she run.

I just love the way she bound.

I just love the way she accompany me.

I just love the way that whatever I did, she’s not bored with me.

I just love her more than anything right now.












P/S: I also love her because she does have a soft, firm, big, elastic, round balls.





*slap slap* WHAT ARE YOU ALL THINKING?

Meet my new girlfriend, Miss Basketball.

Currently training with her for my Uni team.

A Perfectionist That Go Ahead His Limit

Have you ever feel like a total idiot, after pass judgment on a friend’s work? I admit I’m a perfectionist, a person that aiming for the best; even a slight mistake is prohibited. I like to do thing right; following the procedures, work with slower pace and might do whatever thing in order to have a perfect outcome. There’s one time when I fling away a full page of report just because I couldn’t find my liquid paper. To me, strikethrough is a total NO in my report or academic writing (blog is okay); nonetheless in examination, I’m always in dilemma because I didn’t study at all, thanks to EA games liquid paper is not allowed. Geez, thanks for forcing me to do strikethrough. Yet come to think about it, I didn’t really do much strikethrough even in exam.

*applause*

Okay, back to this topic; being a perfectionist of course had its bad and good. It’s totally a double-edged sword. The good thing is the outcome is forever satisfactory but the bad thing is you tend to waste more time, tend to spend more on stuff that are not necessary (liquid paper for instance), and recently which I just discover, being perfectionist MAKE UR FRIEND PISSED OFF BIG TIME.

There’s a friend of mine who had been always ready to lend a hand, most cases la. Then there’s one day when I went to his house to borrow things, for the very first time; I saw a stack of paper on his roommate table. It looks like an assignment to me, but more like some standard three level assignment. Without fail, every time I witness things that seems amusing to me, I’ll surely point it out.

Mels: Hey, what’s this?
Friend: (busy looking for things inside his room) What?
Mels: The thing on your roommate table.
Friend: (still looking) Oh, report.
Mels: Haha, it sure looks funny.
Friend: (still looking) Funny? Why say so?
Mels: Your roommate sure has the guts to challenge his lecturer. His English alphabets are similar to Jawi writing.
Friend: (still looking?) …
Mels: Haha, your roommate Malay?
Friend: (coming out of his room) That’s my report, any problem with that?

At that moment, Mels hoping that there are holes where he can just hide his face.


And that was things that passed long time ago, and i think I'm forgiven. But recently, we are assigned to a group task. Each of us is required to do a portion of it and when we finished our parts, we send it to a scapegoat person to compile it; which is by twist of fate to be my Jawi writing friend. What a small world. I did learn a lesson or two from my last mistake, this time I ‘die die’ also won’t comment on his writing. This time we are required to print it out, in other word we type it. Thank god! No more handwriting, no more comment from me. And one day, he sends me a copy of our assignment. As always, I’ll volunteer to check the assignment before print; that’s what a typical perfectionist will do.

As I read-through the assignment, I found out plentiful of grammar mistake, misuse of English terms, and some incorrect vocabulary in the introduction part; so I texted the compiler; which is happen to be my Jawi friend AGAIN to had a look.

Mels: Hey, take a look at the intro part.
Friend: What’s wrong? It seem fine to me.
Mels: See properly la, so many grammar mistakes. He using Engrish or English?
Friend: A few only la.
Mels: A few!? You read properly. Kinder garden level English okay. Nevermind I asked **** to redo it.

**** is a name of the other friend which is in my group. So I texted ****;

Mels: Redo your introduction ASAP, a lot of mistake.
****: I changed my part already, I’m doing conclusion.
Mels: Who you change with?
***: ‘Friend’ the one who compile it.









"TOK TOK TOKTOK"


*sound of me digging holes*


Sorry ‘Friend’, I just wanted to be perfect.